pennylane731's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- waterlogged desperation clings to my lungs choking me like nicotine and the pills forced down don't make me calmer at all i'm ashamed of the dreams that i have while i'm awake crying and pathetic, begging for release but when it's all that you have more often than not you'll take what you can, and be thankful for what you've got and i bit back the screams and the curses until my lips bled swollen and red the pounding beats don't stop, don't stop until minutes and minutes have passed this is what it feels like scrapes that i regret (so afraid) as soon as they're formed i'm scaring myself again (that maybe i don't love you enough) but i know that the next time you'll break my heart (it doesn't matter) and i'll be drunk and diluting the bloodstains again (this is what it feels like) you didn't hear my breath caught in my throat or the single saline scream the vacant stare into the matress halogen and the artificial breeze this is what it feels like scrapes that i regret (so afraid) as soon as they're formed i'm scaring myself again (that maybe i don't love you enough) but i know that the next time you'll break my heart (it doesn't matter) and i'll be drunk and diluting the bloodstains again (this is what it feels like) 8:05 p.m. - 2004-07-13 clix if you <3 me ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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