pennylane731's Diaryland Diary

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a dedication long overdue, aka confessions of a doormat, aka i'm ready and prepared

you're such a talented bastard, aren't you?

sneaking all these little tricks into your bed.

claiming "just a friend" status,

and all the other clever alibis.

i didn't believe in the book signings;

i always read your poetry.

pining for someone

pining for someone other than who was sharing your home.

i knew i knew this all along

i knew i knew this all along

i knew it was an ego boost

when she claimed you'd never

love me like her.

offended as i was, i knew that she was right.

so i drank myself dry and you did nothing to make it easier.

internal cruelty: physical and mental

this breakdown, was

all in the name of love, dear.

all in the name of love.

i was always giving more; you always got your way,

so you could say "no regrets" with a clear conscience, sweetie.

i always have, and i always will -

the calendar marks the days that i've continued, but

let this be a warning: i notice more than i let on,

and you don't notice half as much as you think you do.

7:07 p.m. - 2004-07-13

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