pennylane731's Diaryland Diary

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unsettling (in the end it doesn't even matter)

it starts with one thing...

the laughter heard, not induced by me
structure breaking, words to silence
i can tell the distance by this
i can feel it, so unsettling

i'm already planning the party for one,
i'm already planning to become undone
i'm already planning to waste away
i'm already planning to aleviate...

the list it grows, i'm not contained
hours upon hours, i wait for a word
i shouldn't have jumped as high as you wanted
i shouldn't have, it's so unsettling

i'm already planning the party for one,
i'm already planning to become undone
i'm already planning to waste away
i'm already planning to aleviate...

i ask questions that get no answers
it's as if i don't exist
would it be better, so you don't
have to admit the association

not like you ever did, anyway
not like you ever did, anyway
always the secret
always the shame

i'm already planning the party for one,
i'm already planning to become undone
i'm already planning to waste away
i'm already planning to aleviate...

you only want the side of me
you choose to see, ocassionally
out of obligation, it means nothing
you're free to go

12:38 a.m. - 2004-12-09

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