pennylane731's Diaryland Diary

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the note

how do i stop this

from killing me like cancer

maybe i liked it better before

maybe i'm no good at this

straining for the high notes

visibly in anguish

but the door closes behind me

and i am left...alone

the bottle smashed against the wall

and the shards become tears

recreation of the drama

held inside for too many years

i'm falling into nightmares

dreaming up the sequence

fantasies of dedications

knowing that nobody cares

maybe i should die alone

and stop being so selfish

it might just do a little good

to navigate my own way... home

the bottle smashed against the wall

and the shards become tears

recreation of the drama

held inside for too many years

it would be the hardest thing

and i'm so scared,

i don't want to make the wrong decision

this is my everything, but

i'd rather kill just one

instead of two...

(bye, goodbye goodbye goodbye)

10:49 p.m. - 2004-07-26

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