pennylane731's Diaryland Diary

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love is geometry

each button i press
is one step closer to disaster
but angels don't have to sing
to be heard

when the light hits the circle
and the sound fills the room,
who's really listening?
who's really hearing?
the spotlight's on me now

if i'm bleeding the melodies
will it make it any clearer?
that i'm scared to be alone
(in this)

we whispered without speaking
i laughed under the flashing light,
captured my smile,
my gift to you.

maybe the meaning would
echo through your touch

i'm waiting for the promise
but forever's taking too long to arrive.
do you remember how it feels
to not be so tired?

pretending to love me
distraction in the moment
i didn't think of it, then,
for those hours spent
in the philosophy of romance

i'd listen attentively
to rhythms that are spoken
i'd become fluent in the language
if it meant that much to you

you've been there all along
but never truly heard me sing
if given the chance, i wonder
would you hear:
the suicide pact,
the tearing,
the disease,
the helplessness
the desperate plea for a guarantee
that i know is too much to ask for

would you notice this smile
is covering for the sadness
if my eyes stared deeply enough
past your eyelashes
would it be worth the risk?

surrounded by compliments
i don't know how to take.
i don't deserve them
(don't stop saying them)
i don't believe you
(but oh, how i want to)

12:51 p.m. - 2004-11-11

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