pennylane731's Diaryland Diary

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when the past comes to haunt, what can you do but run?

can you sit, loving
while knowing that her presence
radiates bright
in your memory?
flushing that desire
with alcoholic rage
and sleep.

this is the pedestal placed
we are the marked ones
instantaneous breakdown
knowing our shortcomings

why do you love her this way?
and i am not breaking the spell
overall
don't ask how i am flourescently clairvoyant
i
just
am

encircling fingers and wrists
branding me yours
false hopes yearn for absolution
sinning through hate,
asking for death,
aware of my delusions,
but still they will not break

i am alone in envy
of all i have failed to become
i am not her
i am only the fire-born replacement

you'll stumble backwards
and i'll wave goodbye

12:02 a.m. - 2004-12-23

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