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need
dig your fingers in my skin so i remember who i am
i don't want to recall the first time but to keep myself prepared i do preparation for division expletives and broken dishes the pillows hold tearstains years later it is idiotic to believe in that which is unsaid -- implied? never. that will not suffice tonight. barricaded in the bed, i am feeling tight the springs squeak my mouth is open, but i do not scream i offer no hint of pain because acceptance is love adoration is doled out in forceful blows this is what i was taught to believe through all the scars and headboard scratches i was left to cry and beg no one has begged for me the swallowed pride is mine apologies claim my sanity i cannot speak my mind without paying the final cost so the silence will save me, tortured smile upon my lips lighthearted song in my voice the only eternity i am guaranteed is the one i fear will come too soon even after i have bargained with gods, false and true
7:19 p.m. - 2005-03-28
clix if you <3 me
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