pennylane731's Diaryland Diary

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at 25, it's all a lie

i wish you could have seen me die
when you spoke about her eyes
knowing she got under
is more pain than i can control

if i could shake myself gone
something else for my gaze to settle on
would it become the same as now?
i'm a prisoner to the prize

no one's pretending to be
no one's wishing to be me
i live in jealous envy of the
other ones who captured...

too tired and tipsy to remember
the explanation that was murmured
but it broke me as much as
i wish to break the neck

i'll use poetic license to
shadow my complaints

no one's pretending to be
no one's wishing to be me
i live in jealous envy of the
other ones who captured...

i'm forced to read the geography,
not just cheap pornography
it was more than i imagined
"it was only...it was only..." was just a lie

just to have somebody's eyes
swing this way, feel the burn like mine
but i've taken a million chances
that haven't panned out,

(i'm tired)

no one's pretending to be
no one's wishing to be me
i live in jealous envy of the
other ones who captured...

2:20 p.m. - 2005-02-23

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